Tonight

Walking thought the door
Smell of sex, there’s something more
I might as well just be alone tonight

His body’s warm and comforting
As I perform I mold to form
Just so I’m not alone in bed tonight

Never lasting
Ever asking
Why do I love him like I do?

He’s not mine, my lover dear,
There’s another girl he should be near
I know she’s not alone in bed tonight

Midnight, he’s passed out in bed
I cry as I caress his head
In my heart I’m alone again tonight

Never lasting
Ever asking
Why do I love him like I do?

If I ever tried I’d leave him
Leave him with his new girlfriend
I’d never be alone another night

But I love him much to strongly
Every night the same deep longing
As such I’m alone still every night

Never lasting
Ever asking
I will always love him as I do…

The Most Delicate Sound

Listen! Chirr-irp. Chirrp. Chirrp.
The grasshoppers having a conversation
Tweet! Twit! Twitter-twit!
The birds sing us a merry tune

The most delicate sound of all
Is the whispering wind
As it caresses my body

In The End

You're not there for me like you used to be and I just can't see
How can we be forever if we're never together through all these endeavors
Try as I may, I just can't convey what I want to say
See, you lack the ambition, and I the ammunition to make it through this transition.
And I must confess that this emptiness our relationship possesses
Forces me to believe that we just can't achieve what we once perceived
Just to clarify, we really did try, but I guess this is goodbye

Vampiric Tendancies


A thorn from a rose
Pricks my skin
And out pours the blood
That was held within

Taste that blood
Filled with beauty and madness
The sweet release
Brings you bitter sweet sadness

Release your soul
Drink from my vine
Your youth, your love
All your beauty is mine

Beautiful Girl

Beautiful girl
How many hearts will you break?
Go back and be the sweetness I can taste
Please don't let him see your magic
You know his poor heart isn't that strong

Manipulative woman
How many times will you hurt?
Your sugar sometimes burns like salt
As you open all his old wounds
With your new flame

Sweet little girl
What changed the way you look at the world?
Behind your dark eyes your face is jaded
Your smile is never real

Sweet little girl...
Where did you go?

Lost Virgin


Tell me, what was it like

Nothing special
I was simply … there

Well, what did you feel?

Distant…
Impassive…
Detached…

But, it’s such a stepping stone
Such a mile marker
For a young girl

So I hear.

You must have felt something
Happiness? Pain? Rejection? Love

No, my darling, I did not

But … anything?

I felt nothing! Why won’t you listen to me!
It was nothing! He was nothing.
It was a moment in life I will never forget
And hate to remember

And I wish I had never done it

Mayllah

Mayllah lives in a separate world
She pretends she’s a different girl
Prozac, anacin, amphetamine
She wishes she knew how to deal with these means
She gazes at the girls in pleated skirts
She’ll tell you to your face that pain doesn’t hurt
A state of mind; Mind over matter
Mayllah knows
Mayllah’s forgotten
Disappearing in a flashback

Pronounced "My - luh"

Earth Angel

Oh, sweet!
Oh, lover!
What to say
What to regret
As I love with a love
Greater than the angels
I can only regret
That I was not physically
Heavenly enough for you
You are the one from above
An Earth Angel
The heavenly food to satisfy
My eternal longing

Breathless and Wanting


On your couch
Your arms around me
No
I know it’s wrong
But, oh, one look
Into those deep crystalline pools

Pull me closer
I won’t resist

A psuedo-scary movie
A good excuse for proximity
The movie ends
I look at you

Again
Those longing eyes

Pull me closer
I won’t resist

Closer, Closer
Nose to nose
I close my eyes
Fluttering eyelash
Angels breath on your cheek

What will be will be
And must be

Pull me closer
I can’t resist

Hold me tighter
Lip to lip
Tongue to tongue
Breathless and hasty
Wanting
Needing
Fullness of the longing

Hold me closer

Oh those eyes
Those sweet lips
Parting

“I can’t remember a time my heart beat this fast”

Again
You pull me closer
How can I resist

You Never Loved Me

It’s not fair and I know that you hate me
You want me gone
You want me to leave forever
(My life forgotten)

You never loved me like you said you did
You never meant what you said
You never loved me like you said you did
You never loved me anyways

(Now my life is gonna fade)

I feel like my life is being torn apart
You broke my heart my soul regret
(Now, I know)

You never loved me like you said you did
You never meant what you said
You never loved me like you said you did
You never loved me anyways

(Yes, my life is gonna fade)

Time For Change
You worry me sometimes! I get really scared for you. I think that all the things you’re doing… they might equal your demise. I care about you! I don’t want you to get hurt. I wish you would stop what you’re doing and come back home. You know what I mean! The girls, drugs, alcohol, and the violence… oh, the violence. Do you think I can’t see what’s going on? Babe, it’s not helping us. If you don’t stop… well, I might have to go. Baby, it’s not that I want to leave you, but I just can’t stand to see you killing yourself. I couldn’t stand to see you die. If I forget your face, could I spare mine? But, that’s not what it’s all about. I want you to stay here with me, Baby. But, if you won’t stop, well, I’ll just have to move one. It’s time for those hated words, but they must be said. So… Goodbye… I won’t be seeing you for a while.

She is such a gentle girl
Intelligent in the ways of the world
Closes her eyes, hides in shame
She knows she is the one to blame

One by One


One by one I’m losing all my best friends…
Everyone is changing
Everything is different now and I
Can’t fathom why
They hate me
They won’t speak to me
The put me down when
I’m not around

* All alone in the world
* Silently screaming
* Gazing at you
* Looking for new ways to be
* Never being satisfied with life
* Harsh elements
* Sweet Inspiriations

I miss you
Tentative Title


I’m lonesome and hopeless
I look in your closet and smell your clothes
And I cry, remembering you
How you used to love me
But where there was love
Only bitterness remains
Everything makes me remember
How can I forget
I can only regret that I didn’t hold on tighter
We faded
Faded away till there was no more.