What is it that we're dying to do
As we fall and get tangled together?

We're sending each other up
And over waves of emotion,
Which may drown us if we let them.

You've got secrets, but then,
So do I.
Now, I struggle with my past.
You struggle to understand.

We exchange keys
To the rooms in our hearts
Where our souls are laid bare.

We cling to one another,
Climbing higher and higher
Where all we've left to do is fall

I have a secret that no one knows
I'll never tell how the story goes

It muddles about inside my head
A horror unfolds within my bed

Blooming from an unkind dream
Arose a most unusual theme

I hang my head, in shame, disgrace
Yet no one will ever see the space

Where I was thrown off course
Now, I walk around morose

To tell this truth would bring shame
So, tell no one, do not speak it's name

I'm Getting By

I'm so dramatic, always over analyzing
Rather, wishing I were minimizing
Baptising all the problems real and imagined
I'm truely tragic

I would really like to indulge, to take
Some sweet intoxicating substance so to fade
All feelings and emotions are better left alone
I'm mostly manic

Bury my brain in the noises insane
Hoping I'm no more than slightly maimed
I'll soon realize and open my eyes again
I'm getting by

How can I say that I miss you
I love you
I need to be near you

When the feelings in my heart
Slip right out of our hands
And now, I feel nothing at all

In my madness, I fall apart
With nothing but your arms
And now, I feel so small

The sun has fill'd the room with light
But I'm tangled in the sheets
Nothing I know is real

Closing, forcing eternal night
Lost in the summer heat
I'm bursting just to feel

How can I say that I miss you
I love you
I need to be near you
Near you
So close to you now...

When she's reaching out for you
She's grasping at the seams
Of a memory
Long gone by

It's not you
It is within a dream
To slip and fall would be
Heavenly

She pulls you down
Face to face
Bodies pressed together
In a memory

It's not you
It is someone she used to be
To have you inside
Would be so
Excessive

In her arms
Still she is sleeping
With dreams and memories
No, it's not you

She said: I'm falling down
Off your throne
Come catch me, boy

She said: the days
They are too bright
Come, bring on the rain

She said: teach me
Let me see your ways
Or I'll never understand

You were the one I wanted to keep me warm
But all my desires fell hopeless to the floor

I fall apart in the heat, in the water
After I swore I'd never be your martyr

Pick me and pull me through
Can I get by without you

Show me how to carry this weight
When all my lovers are alone and sedate

When all I wanted was you

Show me how to keep it all inside
In the sun, where can I hide?

And now, there's nothing true

A sweet, funny poem, if you are privy to the joke...

Summer Snow

I love the winters despite their cold
For they grant me sweet gifts of snow

Falling softly on lips and cheek
I shall have my snow every day

Every week

And blizzards do not frighten, no
Within me they fill a longing hole

When your winters melt to June
Still, it may snow within my room

I cannot share my snow with you
Unless you know the secret, too

It only snows when the weather's right
Snowing then from dawn to night

I share my snow with but one
When they are here, it will snow a ton!!!!

Never Was Any

Dark, mysterious.
You wish he could be yours.
But he never was.
Never was any at all.

And all these things you wish for;
The people and the love and the snow:
None of them ever was.
Never was any at all.

And so you'll go on,
Miserable as always.
Wishing for things that were.
Thing that might've been.

You'll go chasing them in your dreams, is all.
Never reach any at all

My heart longs to be near you.
To touch your face, your hair.
To look into your eyes.
To kiss you. Oh, to kiss you...
To press my lips against your's, even for a moment.
To feel the sparks flitting about my belly.
To lie on my rug, our bodies close, legs entwined, faces cheek to cheek.
To simply delight in your presence.

Unrequited Puppy Love

What happens when the one you love, loves another
And the one you love won't speak of any other
Than this perfect being who has stolen your love's heart
So perfect that she is tearing the two of you apart

Invisible

Maybe if I sit as still as a rock, I'll be invisible
Then, no one will touch me, because they won't know I'm here
Nobody will break me, because they can't see me
I can sit here, still as a rock in the shade of this tree
In the cool of this grass, in the warm breezes of summer
And no one can hurt me, because I'm invisible

Frustration

I want to fuck
I want to love
I want to love for you
My love, for you alone

"Yes"

The passion that burns deep
In my soul, in my stomach, in my heart
My mind reels for you

"Oh, yes"

Deep in my belly
I feel that familar burn
Yet, Cold Frustration!

Do you give a man ice water to warm him?
NO!
Nor do you give this girl cold lonliness
DISTANCE
To fulfill her longing

"Yes!"

Longing for you as I long for air
I am gasping at the hands that hold me here
I long for the sweet release
Oh, the frustration and bitter agony!

"YES"

How I long for your tender touch
I love your body! Every inch! Every hair!
I miss the way you miss me
Most of all

"Oh, yes..."

Cynical Lover

What do you believe? Do you know what I percieve?
You think you're intrinsic, but you're just another cynic
A depressing component to every moment
To love is to fuck; you're stalling and stuck
To live is to lie; to err is to die
I want beauty and truth! Embracing my youth
I live for life, I love to love, and I believe in God above
True happiness you'll never know; it's your enemy and foe
So, roll your eyes and sigh, as I blow this kiss goodbye

The crazed poet sits alone
Wondering why no one elver took the time to care
Her fingers tap the computer keys
Spewing out a master peice
That will never sell
Her sadness and gladness; her inherent madness
Confusion shrouds her life
She rubs her temples
Fingers the veins popping from her head
She thinks of blood, sex and murder
Misfortune to every soul

You always were the one
Leading me, guiding me
Through this deserted life

And you lead me, guided me
Down narrow, rocky paths

I can walk alone
I will walk on my own

The paths you chose
Are no longer ones I can follow