written in 2001

Just knowing that I can't have you
I cry, I weep
All the plans we made
The dreams we had
It's nothing now
There's nothing left in the bed we made
The love we had
Gone
Like a flower
Blown away in the chilling autumn breeze

written in 2001

I can feel you slipping away
I can tell you don't want to stay
Both our hearts are dying
You know I feel like crying
But there's just no other way

written in 2001

Understanding

She said she could understand anybody's problems
Bullshit!
Get away from me girl
You don't know what I'm going through
You don't know what they've done to me
You have no idea how to deal with my situation
You just don't understand
Scram, slut
Find another dude, another day, another dollar
Understand his problems
Not mine

written in 2001

All I Want

I want to scream
I want to rip out your heart
I want to make you cry and night
I want to make you believe it can't get any worse
I want to break you
I want to hurt you
I want to make all my pain go away

written in 2001

Once Again

I'm stranded once again
You left me once again
I'm crying once again

I want to be where ever you are
I swear I'll go that far
Just to hear your voice
My heart leaves me no choice

I have to follow you once again
And try not to get left once again
Because I don't want to cry once again

Can't you see
I will do anything to be
Back with you once again

Collide

Tongues intwine as lips press close
Bodies heat together at hips grind tight
Minds collide when we are one

Flirting at any age

Showing off your mad soccer skillz
Thinking I'm impressed?
Well, maybe I pretend to be
Because, though I know naught of soccer
And I don't really care to know more
My act keeps your attention fixed to me

You don't know what you want

We all piled on the bed
You were tired and I was tired, but Gods!
I couldn't sleep.

Even when we had the double to ourselves,
Sleeplessness prevailed.

As we lay on our sides,
Your arm around me,
We were two spoons,
Close as could be.

I rolled over at the insistence of your hand
Caressing my skin.

You wet my lips and invaded my mouth.
I pressed my length to yours.

But in the morning,
I must wake to greet another.

I curl up beside you,
With your arm around me,
Wondering what the future could bring.

To Only Be
So, I lie here on my bed, pretending I'm creative.
Pages of prose surround me.
The room, bathed in soft candlelight.
Drunk on wine, I believe I'm beautiful.

"I'm not going to break your heart. I can't promise you that you'll never cry again. For God'sake, you're a woman!"

Jump Rope

Jump rope
But don't splash water on the windshield

Inner city seven-year-olds
With dreds and dirty shorts
Jumping rope
Through fire hydrant sprays
Twisting
Intwining
Plastic yellow handles

The Know

Smooth
Cool
Groovy
DROP!

Are you in?

FLOW!
Don't mess with it

Are you in the know?

Magnetic Poetry

Chain me fast
Watch still with
Beautiful bitter ache
As though blood is music
To love and lust

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Leave by day
We lose him
Leave here

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Eat raw & scream

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Worst science textbook thought

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Girl totally has it
Weekend looking up

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Big suit sister
Speak pride in music
Show blackness

Drunken Prose

Warm centers and tongues
Soft and sweet
Velvet deep

To love too much
To feel, to touch

Darling, I know I'm drunk
As we sweat in his bunk

The Cat's Meow's Songbird
Singing softly and sweetly
She loves no less than completely

Unfortunate to be directed
At such filthy swine
That sweet angel
I want to make her mine